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yaaaaaaaaaaay another blog entry from yours truly

tomorrow's independence day here in the us of a. not looking forward to playing america's favorite game of 'is it fireworks or gunshots' lmao. ANYWAY. i've been playing thru dawntrail and i absolutely love it. i like that we the warrior of light aren't really the main focus here and we're kinda playing second banana to wuk lamat. like we're her mentor guiding her. no spoilers of course but i love seeing her grow as a person thru this expac. im also here waiting for twitch to fucking finally give my my chocokopur mount drop. uGH I WANT MY CHOCO BIRD. oh well. least im able to support my fave streamers! even if i hate the ads.... But! enough about that! my tablet is on it's last legs so i ordered that too. its smaller, yeah. but it can be used on my phone! and the best part of all? IT'S PINK! PINK, BABY YEAHHHH

i also preordered my boiled one plush yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!! my son should be here sometime in october. hes perfect for the spooky season!

oh holy fuck it's been a long time since i updated this thing

sorry about that. tho its not like anyone reads these things. i just use this as an online diary of sorts. well. within reason. like hell i'm gonna trauma dump on my fuckin neocities. but yeah! been a while. as you can see, i made a landing page and redid my theme to be scara. thanks to my bestie pasta for the scara landing page. like, i didn't even ask them to make it, they just wanted to cus the inspo struck them. probably because of the art i showed them when i commissioned them to draw selfship art of me n scara. i've also decided to just say fuck it and add multiple buttons for ppl to link back to. i like the ones pasta made for me and i also wanna make a scara one or an emet one on my own. so imma give ppl the choice of which button they wanna use. maybe make buttons for blade and boothill from honkai star rail... also i kinda wanna make my about page fischl themed since i've been feelin a fischl kin shift randomly.

ya know, they made me an emet themed code... i might work on a shrine to him and use that. oh, but i don't know what to write. i've never made a shrine before. maybe i'll just infodump abt how much he means to me and how much of a genuine comfort he is to me. that man helped me get through a REALLY tough time in my life. him and oddly enough... shin godzilla. yeah, strange comfort character combo lol but hey. i wouldn't change it for the world.

long time no blog entry lol. i've been wanting to make a blog entry but i've been feeling like a wet napkin recently soooooooooooo yeah.

so i've been hanging in there. pasta showed me a video on cedric from sofia the first and was like 'lol mero look he's like emet for babies' and since they said the magic word "emet", my interest was instantly piqued. and uh yeah, i have a new blorbo now. a new lil pookie. a new soggy wet man to fawn over. even my other friends think he's merocore. it also doesn't help that apparently his design drew inspiration from cruella de vil. god, i am a flat fuckin circle when it comes to men lMAOOOO

what can i say? i'm weak for a man with black and white hair. especially if he's a soggy mess of a man. and now my friends are subject to my endless autism abt him and i feel so cringe but at the same time, i've seen people around my age also like cedric so that and my friends are helping lessen the cringe feeling.

weh....things keep going down the shitter and i just wanna take a moment to just cry. first whb's launch is a big pile of oof because prettybusy randomly banned people for a mistake they made and players used a currency they put up without limits thinking it was a feature of the game and not a potential exploit. people are rightfully mad but i hope this doesnt sink the game cause its really fun so far. and i kinda like the demon boys in it better than the obey me boys both design and personality wise. i dun want anything to happen to it...

and then theres the issue with me trying to install sillytavern. my friend honey was showing me how to and when it wouldnt continue with it's powershell install i got really spooked and needed help but, as fate would decide it, she went offline. now i'm not mad at her, but dear god the timing was shit. and my other friends tell me "oh silly tavern isn't that intimidating!" and i know they're trying to help but it makes me feel even more like an idiot. like, im sorry im rlly over protective of my computer. this is the only one i got and i don't have any money to get a new one. i just wanna lay down and cry honestly. just curl up in my bed and mope. just feeling like utter trash.

it's so hard not to give into nihilism. it really is. it's just so tempting to be a nihilist when everything just keeps going to shit.

i also feel bad for being able to play whb because my friend kucha got banned. it's leftover trauma from my abusive ex girlfriend who would get all whiny and bitchy whenever she couldn't do something but i and others could. thanks, cunt. /s

First blog entry!! Yahoo!! Never really had a website blog before. The closest thing was deviantART journals and that one time I had a blog on this french site called Skyrock cause a lot of Tokyo Mew Mew artists from FR were there. I can't believe it closed just last month. Feel kinda sad abt that.

Aaah! I'm so happy! After almost two weeks of silence, PrettyBusy, creators of LoveUnholyc and What in HELL is bad finally posted a little update! Me and the whole WHB server were worried sick what with the Unity nonsense going on. But it looks like nothing has changed and October 4th is still the release date! Can't wait to finally sex up some demon men!

Also one of my favorite bands, E Nomine, has uploaded one of their albums remastered to spotify! Hopefully the rest will follow and I can finally have my weird religious techno german music on spoofy.